what to do when your hart is broken?

As I lay here in bed thinking to myself. This year has flown by. Yet I don't remember anything except for December 18th on. As I sit here pusiled as to why that is. When from December 18th on was full of sorrow and hartake. I mean who wants to remember only that. Out of a entire 365 days. It may seam obvious no one. Well for me that's all I remember of the past year.     As I lay here asking God why he would leave me only remembering that part of the hole 365 days. I realized that in those dark days I was where God wanted me to me. Believe me it was no where near where I wanted to be. Aside from that fact it was where he wanted me to be.  Now as I look back I see how things could of Ben different. Many eben a little calmer. If I would of in steed of asking "God where are you in all of this" and instead leaned on HIM for my stranth to fix my broken hart. Thinfs would not had made me feel so alone. As I reflect back I am remained of a verce in the Bible that says To us that he is here to the broken charted and bandages our wounds. If I would of only claimed that verce as my own I would not had been so broken. It is still a hard road that I am on but I am learning. That is I start and end my day with God in his word my hart is a lot less broken.