In the fire

 When God calls you to stay in the fire. 

As I was sitting in church the outer day it dawned on me. Sometimes God calls us to stay in the fire. Even when we beg him to take us out of the fire. As I sat there thinking about that the question came to my mined. How can God let you stay in the fire if he wants no harm to come to you? Well the answer was fairly simple.  Because there will not be any harm that comes to you. I know what you are thinking being in the fire hurts. Yes it does. Then how can God let you stay in the fire? Because as long as God is with us there will not be any harm that comes to us. 

So are you saying there will not be pain or that you won't cry? No there my be times when the fire hurts. There may be times when all you can do is cry. And that is ok if all you can do is cry. Just because we cry does not mean we do not have faith or that we are week. It simply means that it hurts. Think of this one even Jesus cried.  If the creater of all there is. The one who is stronger than you and I. They one who died so we could have life. Could cry then so can we. 

God never told us that the fire would not hurt. Or that the fire would not cause pain. Because sometimes it does cause pain sometimes it hurts sometimes it makes us cry. Yet he did say that when all that hapens we will not be alone.  He will be there right with us. 

So if you are in the fire of life today. Just remember it is ok to cry when things hurt to much. It is ok to ask why. It is ok to say I can't handle this. Because you are never alone in the fire  

What God thinks about people with disabilities verses how people see others with disabilities.

What God thinks about people with disabilities verses how people see others with  disabilities. 

Yes I see you staring at the girl in the back of the room who is a little different from you.  I see the way you look at her. Thinking to yourself what is wrong with her.  Or why is she the way she is. You sit there thinking that she does not see you looking at her the way you are. She just sits there and does not say anything to you, but she so badly wants to ask you why you are looking at her that way. She knows what the stairs and weird looks are for. You do not have to say a word she has herd all of them before. She so desperately wants to tell you that she is just like you. Yet she won't because she knows you will just say to yourself she is crazy she is not like me she is different. 

Why don't you for a minute put yourself in her place. How would you like it if you were not like everyone else and someone treeted you the way you are her. I know you are thinking that could never be me I am normal and she is not. Well let me be the first to tell you that things can happen and you could be worse off than she is. Did you ever think of that. Let me gees no you did not. Well how do you feel now. You may not feel like it is a big deal. You may be so full of yourself that you think I am to good for that.

 

But let me tell you  something there is someone out there who thinks she is really amazing.  You might be sitting there thinking to yourself yah right there is no one who thinks she is amazing. She is just a weird person. You may even think she will never make anything out of herself. Well that girl knows that someone created her just the way she is. That person is the same one who made you as well. That person is Jesus the created of everyone and everything.  He thinks she is really amazing. After all he is the one that gave her the gift that she has. Yes that's right the gift she looks at it as a gift not a curse.  She knows that even with her  disability God can and will use her.  You may think how can she say that it is a gift or that God will use her. It is simply the fact that God uesed a lot of people in the bible who had disabilitys to teach others . Just look at when he raised Laseris from the dead. Or how he opened the blind mans eyes. Or how he mad the crippled man to walk again. They all had disabilitys  and God uesed  them.

Just in case you got to wondering who the girl is in the story is yes that girl is me. 

what to do when your plain is not Gods plain?

What to do when your plain is not Gods plain?

Have you ever ben there? Well that is where I am right now.

You see I have discovered that my plain and my dream for my life is not Gods plain for my life.

Well me plain for me life sense I was in kindergarten was to finish high school and go to collage and become a special needs teacher.

Well part of my dream has ben loast. Which is me finishing high school.

Yes I have found myself asking why. God why are you taking my dream from me?

Have I not tried hard enough? Is me wanting to prove those people wrong that told me I would never graduate wrong? (ever ben there)

Well if you have never ben in a similar circumstance you will fined yourself there one day.

 

 

 

 

 

I know what you are thinking how is there a bright side to this depressing story.

Well let me explain. Just like God never gave some people in the Bible things that they wanted like Rebecca.  Yet he still used her for bigger and better things.  It is really hard for me to see how God is going to use me in a bigger and better way than I could ever imagine .

All I have seen my hole life is God using me with special need kids and he can still do that.

I just have to trust in his plain and let him gide me threw this.   I know today was moastley about mothers, but at my church today the message was about the real struggles of a Christian woman. It really hit me how there plain was not Gods plain and yes they cryed and weped over it. Yet God still used them threw it.

 

 

 

So if you ever think that just because your dream or plain happens to not be Gods plain that you can not be used look at the women in the Bible who God still used in a mighty way.

 

Life's scairs

What to do when you feel ugly? 

Has there ever ben a time in your life where you felt ugly? 

I know for girls that is a silly question. Because every girl goes threw a time in there life where they feel ugly. When was that time for you? What was it at that time that was making you feel ugly?  Well for me I know right now I feel ugly because of a scar I have on my arm from road rash. If you are thinking that had to be painful you are so right. So now I have this ugly scar on my arm. It is making me feel like all people see is my scar. Well this applies to our walk with God as well. We all have scars. Some of ours are from things we have dune in our life. For others it  is more of a scar that people can see. Just like the scar on my arm. 

      So how do you cope with the scares in our lives? Well one way is to realize that our scars do not defined us. You may be thinking to yourself how do the scars I have not defined me. Everyone can see then they are out in the open. What I mean is that yes are scars are a part of us but they do not defined us. We all have duen things that we are not proud of but does that mean that God looks at them as a bad mark on us for the rest of our lives. Of corse not. Once we repent from what we did wrong God does not hold the scars over our head. So why is it that we think we are ugly because of our scars? Well I think it is because we see our scars every day just like the scar on my arm. We sit there and think how ugly is that scar. Yet lucky enuph God never says that or even thinks that. God looks at us as a beautiful child. So why should we be so hard on ourselves over a scar? We should not be we need to learn from ours scars and move on from there. Just as God sees our scairs and still can see us as beautiful. We are all beautiful even with our scairs because God made us beautiful in his light. Just remember it is not God that wants our scars to defined us it is the devil. So take a long look at yourself and realize that if God will except you with your scars then except your scars and love yourself the way God loves you and walk in the light. 

God I feel you there.

  

Hey girls-  Latley the more time I spend alone with God I can hear him say"my child press into me. Let me hold you. Let me comfort you". Latley things in my life have not made sence. I have felt so aloe. I know God wants us to be reil with him. Yet how do we do that to the one who knows us better than we know ourself?  It is quite simple. If we feel like we need to cry inorde to let it out. Then we need to do that. He expects it. He wants us to be honist with him.

I feel so guilty right now. My God loves me and wants what is best for me. And latle instead of me pressing into him. I have been trying to hide from him. Trying to hide my fellings from him. Yet I know in my hart that God does not want that to happon.

God tells us as his children to let him hold us. Let him show us that we are not alone. Do not hide your face from him. Do not try and put on a happy face infrunt of him. Let God see the reial you and let him help you.

When life gets hard

We are called to trust and lean on God. 

How do you do just that when your life is just not going the way you know it should?  I do not know about you but for me I have to just humble myself like a child and let my father hold me. What better place to be then in the comforts lap. When you need some strong arms to hold you and comfort you. We all need someone in our life to hold us together when nothing is going right. What better person to hold you up and hold you together than the one who made you. 

So why is he the last person we tend to go to?  Many it is because we are putting the blame on him for what we are going threw. I know how could we blame the one who always has our back for what we are going threw.  So why are we so quick to do that? Many it is because are hart knows who is really to blame,but our flesh gets the best of us. 

So how do we turn it around and blame the person who deserves the blame? Well for me it is to run into Gods arms and let her hold you and Gide you. Before you let your mined wonder.  I know easer said then dune. But if we want to save ourself from the pain and shame from blaming our father for something he did not do to us. Run to him and let him help you see who is truly responsible for making you feel so a mess. 

Let's clean up our mess and run to the one who loves in spite of our mess.       

When your hart is filled with tears.

Question. Do you ever feel like your hart is full of tears?   Well that is how I have felt for the last week or so.  Why? You might be asking. Because God is trying to show me to hold on to him when I feel like there is nothing else I can hold on to. Lately I feel like someone has taken my moat prized possession from me. You see there have been things that I Chadian moats that have been broken. Not objects you can see mainly ones you can't see. Like trust and faith in people.   Has there ever been a time in your life that someone broke your trust in them? Well that has been where I am. And God is trying to show me that in every situation I can always count on him. When we can no longer trust or turn to the person we uesed to. He is the one person who will always be there for me  Which is so comforting to me.   It is so hard when someone you uesed to truss pertrayed your trust. But there was stood newsGod will never do that to you. We always have a true friend in God who will never pertray us. But sometimes the lesson he will teach us will be a hard lesson to learn.  But we can always trust him because he always has our best interest in mined.